I hate when something happens and you have no one to tell. I can't tell anyone close to me, because I know exactly how each of them with respond. I can't handle their reactions. I don't need someone else to freak out and start trying to control my life, "for my own benefit." I need someone to just let me be quiet if I want to, let me cry if I want to, let me live if I want to. I need someone to tell me it's ok to feel the way I feel because I've done all I can do. And I just don't want to think about it anymore, but it's the only thing on my mind.