I (among those around me) have come to the realization that I am having a quarterlife crisis. I tell you this as I'm still lounging in bed at 10:30am. In my defense, I have a regular bedtime of 3:00am. But this is partially my point. I feel so lazy these days. Maybe it's just the holidays, but I don't think so. Everyone else is back in the swing of things and I'm still taking time off work. It's to the point where I feel completely obligated to have atleast 4 days off per week. Now, granted my situation with my kind of job, this is not a bad thing necessarily. But I actually need the money right now. I guess I'm sick of the responsibility already. I'm not against responsibility, I just want different responsibilites. I want my own place to take care of, and I want a different, more stable job. I want a boyfriend I can see more than once a month (sorry, Ivan, I love you) so my relationship will feel more real. I want to freakin finish college! I don't think that's happening anytime soon though.
I am definitely in a rut. I think this is better than a midlife crisis though. I'm not buying unusually colored sports vehicles, dyeing my hair to cover the grays, and throwing myself off of bridges for fun (not yet, atleast). I just feel so unsettled these days, like I really need something to focus on. But apparently school and work aren't good enough. Am I just being a big baby? Half the time I just want to tell myself, "Suck it up and put your big girl panties on!" But, in our new generation of young adults, should we be intitled to a quarterlife crisis?

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Anonymous said...

if you need money so bad then why aren't you working?

Perksofbeingme said...

I wish I could make it all better. Let me know if there is anything I can do to help.

p.s. Why don't I get any cool word verifications? Mine says "efuli." :(

Raychel Celeste said...

To Anonymous:
If you paid attention you'd see I said my job isn't stable. I'm on a flex worker, so I get very little hours anyway. Because of school, they've hired someone to take over my shifts and have cut my hours way back. I get only a few days a week and I get to choose when they are.

P.S. If you're gonna ask stupid questions, atleast say who you are. Thanks.

Perksofbeingme said...


Feel better about yourself now? That is all

p.s. Heck yes! I finally got a semi cool word verification- "cold cro." Ok, so maybe not cool, but it's better than "efuli."